My 3-Month Old Baby

This was what happened about a month ago to my beloved 'baby' of only 3 months. Have to admit, I was very sad over it. Nevertheless, I am very lucky and blessed to have my another 'baby' showing me all the care in that one month when my '3-month old baby' was in the ICU. Thank you so so much! =)

- Front skirtings

- Right passenger door

- Front skirtings

- Front wheels (Right side)

- Driver-side door

Thank god that I am still able to be here writing this post.

This community message goes out to everyone reading my blog.

~LIFE is SHORT, CHERISH IT. DRIVE SAFE, REMEMBER UR LOVED ONES.~

With care,

CK

Lack of Care, Caring Enough or Over-Caring

As people will always say, too much or too little of something is never the right remedy. This basically means that in whatever we do, we have to always strike the right balance. Easy as it sounds, lets look further into it and see whether can we really strike that right balance.

Lets take a simple example, how much should we really care for a person? Now, no matter what people say, I would like to first state my point of view, which is that we can never care enough for a person, especially the one we deeply love. It can never be enough. I mean, how can we judge the amount of care for that particular person? How can we ever know whether its lacking, enough or when it comes to a stage where caring turns into annoying and irritating?

I'll have to admit, too much of something is never good. If we were to care for someone in the way where we call or msg that person every single minute or every single hour, it would then turn into harrassing that person. This is no doubt. Then, what is it that we should do when we really worry bout that person? Obviously, we would try to get in touch with him/her and then ask bout his/her whereabouts, whether he/she's fine and so on.

ONE HOUR LATER...

Knowing that he/she is somewhere far, in a bad mood, you just keep thinking of him/her and you just feel like getting in touch again. Now, here's where the problem arises. After just an hour, we are worried again. We tend to look at it as a fair thing to do based on our perspective. Well, it does seem fair at the first instance. Nevertheless, it still has the chance of turning into a problem or at times becomes an issue that would be hard to solve within a short period of time.

Don't get me wrong though, I ain't putting the blame on anyone and not saying that anyone is at fault. I guess what I am really trying to say is that we can never find the right balance between not enough, just enough and more than enough. Sometimes, we feel that its the right thing to do and we just do it w/out thinking bout the consequences. At times as well, we tend to really get pretty much worried and because we really care, we act in ways that may be rather unacceptable.

Well, with that said, I guess the main thing that I am trying to conclude here is that the understanding between both parties has to be there.

Having said that as well, I totally agree if anyone out there were to come and tell me that the ultimate solution is the willingness to tolerate and give the special someone the space that he/she needs and deserves. That is simply essential and it leads to many positive things including showing the other party that the faith and trust towards one another is there. It gives both parties freedom, happiness and most of all being able to enjoy the relationship and share the love that they have for one another.

So, I guess, whether its lack of care, caring enough or over-caring... It does not really matter. What matters most is the time that both individuals in the relationship spend with one another and the memories they will bring with them for the rest of their lives. Nothing else matters beyond that. As long as they love one another, there shouldn't be any issue of lacking, enough or beyond enough. Simply said, it will never be enough. No matter how much we do or say, there's never enough of LOVE that can be shared within one another.

P.S. This is an original post. None of its contents have been edited prior to posting. =)

Simply caring,

CK

Opposites Attract

Mere differences or pure incompatibility? This is gonna be a question for the next few days or few weeks I guess. Well, I really dunno to whom this question should be posted to but I hope that I will be able to answer that question thru this post.

There will definitely come a time when in any relationship, we will notice differences between us and we tend to post the question on whether do we really fit one another and should we really proceed with what we have now. Frequently, we tend to arrive at the conclusion that we are imcompatible with one another and we just do not suit one another. However, I really beg to differ.

I rather call this mere differences. Differences that will pull us closer to one another and not further apart. Imagine a situation where we will are both having the same attitude, same character, and same needs. Yes, we might then say that it would be a perfect life. However, thinking back properly, is really being all the way the same gonna make our lifes perfect??

Take a very simple example. If both have the attitude where we are fine if we don't see each other and don't contact one another for some period of time, then it would lead to both just not contacting one another for a time beyond imagination right? If one party is having the above character and the other constantly or rather have a slightly different attitude where he or she needs someone there by his or her side, don't you think that things will definitely be better?? This way, it will lead to both parties being able to compromise and fill up the gaps that either party cant provide to one another. The one that needs space will make sure space given in that relationsip is essential, whilst the one who needs attention and care will make sure that the relationsip will constantly blossom and never die off.

As for providing what the other party needs, I guess its not a question of whether can we provide what the other party needs. Cos I strongly believe that what a an individual really needs in any relationship is a very simple thing. Every individual will only NEED one another. As long as that is fulfilled, I don't see a problem to bring the relationship further.

Yes, at times, there may be demands and needs that we fill we can fulfill. However, if we think properly and take things slowly, these demands and needs are mere wants. If we really care bout the one we love, we will tend to fill up these empty gaps and by the end of the day still provide enough consideration and fulfill all these wants. Its all a learning process that both have to endure. Nonetheless, the endurance will only be a short one.

The moment I set foot on this path, I have told myself time and time again to learn and make my way up to proving to you that I really can make it. I really NEED you in my life and I am willing to do anything in my powers to change the past that were bad and maintain the present that is good.

I admit that I do not know the right way to treat you yet. Well, I guess that shows that I am that innocent when it comes to any relationship right?? =)

I just want to give you the best and I am learning how to give it to you in a way that is the best and most comfortable for you. Things may not always turn out the way it should be. So, tell me what I can do to make things better. Again, I strongly believe that since the day I met you, you are the one for me. Was, is and always will be.

Opposites will always attract. I believe that being ourselves will be the best way to make sure the relationship goes further. This way, we have nothing to hide, all to show and most importantly it all comes from the bottom of the heart. It will all be pure SINCERITY.

Forever yours.

CK

Victim of My Own Wrongs

Time and time again as we go thru in life, its funny to realise that most of what, where and who we are now is not the result of anything or anyone else but more of ourselves. We decide our own future, dictate our own lifes and although at times we may put the blame on external factors, it is still ourselves that does the wrong doings in the end. Therefore, it would be fair to say then that we are victims of our own wrongs.

It happened to me just recently. Things were going well until one particular moment when I let emotions got the better of me. Well, the real fact is I was really feeling very down to the extent that tears were the only answer. I did not know wat was really going thru my mind at that moment. All I could ever think bout was to talk to someone. Someone who meant a lot to me. No prizes for guessing, as an ordinary guy in much need of that someone, I did the next best thing; calls after calls after calls.

The only thing on my mind at that moment was I really needed that someone by my side. It did not came to my mind that it was so late at night, that someone was terribly busy and all the things I have mentioned before just fell out of reach. Yes, maybe some will say that I may have a good explanation and a good reason for what I have done. However, if I had just controlled my emotions and became more understanding in that situation, all these wouldn't have conspired.

Yes, as much as we need that particular someone by our sides at times of real needs, it doesn't mean that we can deprive that someone of their own space and time. Nevertheless, I am very much confident that this time around, it has nothing to do with the three devils that I have once mentioned before (ie: jealousy, sensitivity, security). All I needed last night was just a slight moment more with someone.

I hope that this explanation of mine could be accepted. That was purely how I felt that time and that was purely what I had on mind, nothing else. It never came to mind that I wanted to push things further nor make things worst. I am sorry for giving the wrong impression and it hurt you that much. I am terribly terribly sorry...

Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Please believe me, every word I say is true

Much apologies,

CK

All For You

A perfect life, a perfect start and a perfect ending. This is what everyone out there would wish to achieve in their lifetime. Well, for me, a perfect life would be something rather out of reach. As well as a perfect start and ending. This is because, we only tend to think bout achieving something perfect after we have reached a certain stage in life. Early 20's, early 30's, 40's, maybe even only when we are about to bid our final farewell. Imagine bout the many imperfect things that we have committed before we came to think bout enjoying a perfect life. Something perfect would mean perfect from the moment it was created until the day it is no longer in use.

That's why for me, I am concerned only at giving you the best I can. All the promises that I have made thus far, well, having to admit, not many I can keep. Especially when the missing feeling is making my heart beat faster every minute without your presence. I guess that's something I really have to learn to live with, because I truly understand that I can't possibly be keeping you to my side without giving you the space that you really need. There's always a give and take in everything that we do, what more a relationship. Loving someone is not to control that someone but to trust and let both have equal chances to enjoy the relationship.

As for changing to suit either one, I sincerely feel that this is not something to worry about. Its more of tolerating one another and being ourselves. Cos when we are talking bout changing to suit or suiting to change, it basically means that we are accepting one another for who we are and the things that we do. As long as we are open and honest to one another, I don't see how we can go wrong.

One thing for sure, I will always be myself (Except for those times when I actually became a totally different person la... Those had good reasons k? Nevertheless, I am very sorry for those, as I know it hurt badly).

Many a times before I have said this, but rest assured, things will definitely change for the better. As I am writing this post, something is already about to change. I hope that this would lead to a better and smoother path ahead. As I have mentioned previously as well. Regardless of the amount of effort, time, committment, and sacrifice that I had, am and will put in, I will never get tired or sick of it.

Its merely because I strongly, truly and sincerely BELIEVE in YOU. Its because I believe in US. Its because I am VERY serious in pursuing this dream. Never again will I be able to find such a dream I would want to make a reality. I believe that we share the same dream as well. Only time will tell and prove to you that what I am saying here today is true.

Remember, it always takes two to complete this dream. Until the day that this dream comes true, rest assured that I will always be here, never leaving your side.

"It takes two to tango; So, take me to the dance floor and lets dance the night away."

You mean everything to me, and everything is in YOU.

Until then, I shall work my way up to be able to suit all your needs and never becoming someone else. I am always myself, I am always Calvin Khoo. Was, Is and Will Be...

With much love,

CK

IF - Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream--and not make dreams your master,
If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings--nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And--which is more--you'll be a Man, my son!

-Rudyard Kipling-

Only Love

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say
Try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

But only love can say
Try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye

But only love can say
Try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

That's something only love can do

With love,

CK

Heaven By Your Side

You and I, cannot hide
The love we feel inside
The words we need to say

I feel that I
Have always walked alone
But now that you're here with me
There'll always be a place that I can go

Suddenly our destiny
Has started to unfold

When you're next to me
I can see the greatest story
Love has ever told

Now my life is blessed with
The love of an angel

How can it be true?
Somebody to keep the dream alive
The dream I found in you

I always thought that love would be
The strangest thing to me

But when we touch, I realise
That I found my place in heaven by your side

I could fly, when you smile
I'd walk a thousand miles to hear you
Call my name
Now that I have finally found the
one who will be there for me eternally
My everlasting sun

Suddenly our destiny has started
to unfold

When you're next to me I can
See the greatest story love has ever
told

Now my life is blessed with
The love of an angel

How can it be true?
Somebody to keep the dream alive
The dream I found in you

I always thought that love would be
The strangest thing to me

But when we touch, I realise that I
Found my place in heaven by your side
That I found my place in heaven by
your side

Heaven by your side, heaven by
your side, heaven by your side

When you're next to me, I can see
The greatest story love has ever told

Now my life is blessed with
The love of an angel

How can it be true?
Somebody to keep the dream alive
The dream I found in you

I always thought that love would be
The strangest thing to me

But when we touch, I realise that I
Found my place in heaven by your side

Now my life is blessed with
The love of an angel

Heaven by your side
Somebody to keep the dream alive
The dream I found in you

I always thought that love would be
The strangest thing to me

But when we touch, I realise that I
Found my place in heaven by your side

Yours,

CK

What Should I Do??

Well, things had been going rather well for the past few days. Never before did I imagine it would result in such a situation like now. Currently, I am putting all the blame on me. May it be really my fault or may it be not, I am putting all the blame on me.

It may sound rather silly of me but if I was firm on the first instance, this would not had happened. I should have just told the truth from the beginning. Rather than hiding it away, fearing of losing a friend. I may sound selfish and arrogant in saying that friends should be kept away when it comes to situations like this but this is how I sincerely feel.

It's really not worth it to allow a beautiful story from beginning its tales because of issues that were never meant to be in between the both of us. These issues should just be written off like how the wind brushes the sand away and move on. At the end of the day, its not gonna be fair as well; not only for me but also for you.

I guess the main point here is that we shouldn't let others decide nor affect on our future. Yes, I know and truly understand that we have talked over this time and time again. I really understand everything we have talked bout and I really hope that things will continue to be smooth between us without the presence of unnecessary issues.

Yes, all those issues have long gone and I know I shouldn't mention it anymore. I promise that this post will be the last time I am ever gonna mention bout all those again. I sincerely hope that from here onwards, we can really make it thru and lead a happy life together.

Only time can tell how much I really mean everything I say. As long as you're willing to give me the time I need to prove it all to you, I am very confident and certain that I can really make it. Remember you told me that nothing is ever impossbile for me? Well, what you said was, is and will be true.

Well, in this post as well, I had oftenly used the words should and shouldn't. I really hope you could tell me what I should and shouldn't do. What do you expect from me? Anything at all, I am sure I can work my way to suiting you. The amount of confidence I have in me and you is way beyond what words can describe.

Tell me wat to do... =)

With love,

CK

Specially For You

Times has been rough the past few days, especially the night before when things really got out of hand. I wasn't myself and I just showed a totally different side of me. On one hand, I am rather glad that I could actually show you my true colours in any way possible. However, on the other hand, I am actually very worried that it would affect our future and most importantly the present that we so cherished.

I may be right, I may be wrong for those that I have mentioned above, but that's what I really feel inside and I hope that it would really become a reality. That's the reason I am writing this post and dedicating it specially to you.

I would rather change to suit you, rather than you adopting to me and who I am. Yes, true and fair enough that in any relationship, both parties should understand one another and try to suit each others needs. Well, maybe it's because I really put alot of importance on you. Words can never explain how much you mean to me.

I really thank you for giving me a new meaning of life again. Motivating me to achieve greater heights, be it for me, you or the both of us, granting me the spirit and power to always think that the impossible is never out of reach. Most importantly, you gave me something very important that I strongly believe nobody can take away. You gave me a simple thing called LOVE and CARE.

Everynight I pray and hope that we can both really make it in the near future. I am all ready and the confidence level in me is building day by day. I have to admit as well that, I did committed huge mistakes that seemed rather unforgivable at that particular moment. Nevertheless, you never gave up on me and gave me chance and chance again to change myself and make things better for the both of us. I really THANK you for that.

With that on mind, there's nothing more I can say now than to tell u these three words that I really mean from the bottom of my heart.

I LOVE YOU... =)

PS. Sorry for all the mistakes I committed that have hurt you. I made a promise to you that I would change. This promise I shall keep inside me and on my mind for the rest of my life. Please forgive me...

With love,

CK