I know they say if you love somebody
You should set them free (so they say)
But it sure is hard to do
Yeah, it sure is hard to do
And I know they say if they don't come back again
Then it's meant to be (so they say)
But those words ain't pulling me through
Cos I'm still in love with you
I spend each day here waiting for a miracle
But it's just you and me going through the mill
(climbin' up a hill)
This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, let's face it
All that's happening here is a long goodbye
Sometimes I ask my heart did we really
Give our love a chance (just one more chance)
and I know without a doubt
I turned it inside out
And if we walked away
would make more sense (only self defense)
But it tears me up inside
Just to think we still could try
How long must we keep riding on a carousel
Going round and round and never getting anywhere?
(on a wing and prayer)
This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, Let's face it
All that's happening here is the long goodbye
The long goodbye
The long goodbye
This is the long goodbye
Someone please tell me why
Are you ever coming back again
Are you ever coming back again
Are you ever coming back again
Guess I'm never coming back again
CK
Monday, 17 December 2007
Friday, 7 December 2007
Who Am I??
Its been awhile since I last updated my post... I know its all bout writing, but I jus don have any pics... =)
Anyway, its really been some time this question has been stucked in my mind. The decisions I am making today and even this very moment I am typing this post out, is it the decision made by ME or someone else in me??
Will I regret the choices I make when I look back few years from now?? I dunno how many have I dissapointed these past few weeks actually. I have always tried to please everyone and always forgetting bout myself. Is it then now time for me to really be myself?? To not care bout anyone and anything else??
I wouldn't say I'm a successful person, because I am not. I am not indispensable; I can be thrown out the window anytime, anyhow, by anyone.
Now as time goes by, I have learn one very important lesson in life. Please yourself before even thinking to please others. Think bout yourself first, and not others. Take care of yourself before even thinkin bout taking care of others...
As far as now, I have a ONLY these priorities on my mind. First of all my loved one (you know who you are), studies and of cos last but not least my club...
This is how things would remain for some time to come I guess....
Sorry to those I have dissapointed along the way by making this choice. Its too important for me to let go and I don't think I would let go...
"A 'NO' uttered from the deepest conviction is better than a 'YES' merely uttered to please, or worse, to avoid trouble"
- Mohandas Ghandi -
CK
Anyway, its really been some time this question has been stucked in my mind. The decisions I am making today and even this very moment I am typing this post out, is it the decision made by ME or someone else in me??
Will I regret the choices I make when I look back few years from now?? I dunno how many have I dissapointed these past few weeks actually. I have always tried to please everyone and always forgetting bout myself. Is it then now time for me to really be myself?? To not care bout anyone and anything else??
I wouldn't say I'm a successful person, because I am not. I am not indispensable; I can be thrown out the window anytime, anyhow, by anyone.
Now as time goes by, I have learn one very important lesson in life. Please yourself before even thinking to please others. Think bout yourself first, and not others. Take care of yourself before even thinkin bout taking care of others...
As far as now, I have a ONLY these priorities on my mind. First of all my loved one (you know who you are), studies and of cos last but not least my club...
This is how things would remain for some time to come I guess....
Sorry to those I have dissapointed along the way by making this choice. Its too important for me to let go and I don't think I would let go...
"A 'NO' uttered from the deepest conviction is better than a 'YES' merely uttered to please, or worse, to avoid trouble"
- Mohandas Ghandi -
CK
Monday, 29 October 2007
My Way
I guess the title itself explains a lot. The lyrics to this wonderful song too tells a lot.
I never had a perfect life laid in front of me. I guess not many out there would have any. For those who have enjoyed a perfect life thus far, do appreciate it and never let it go.
I have and had everythin I could ever want in my life though. I achieved things that many would think impossible for me to do. I always believe in one very simple thing in life, 'Nothing is Impossible'. So as long as we try, we can definitely do it. Yes, I admit that i might and would complaint at times, but by the end of the day, its not our complaints that will move things and make things work. Its our effort and creativity that makes the world move round.
Many times before, I had loved and lost the most important people in my life. All this time, whenever I lost someone, I would really feel so down, lifeless and I just felt that its the end of the world. I wanted to just kill myself and forget bout all the sorrows in the world.
Yet, I am still here today, writting this blog, unleashing my deepest emotions and hopefully through sharing, I would be able to care for many others outside who are feeling down and just feel that the world has turned down on them.
The first breakdown I faced was when I lost my first love. She was the only one I had in my life, I gave her everything, and i really mean everything. Never had I fail to fulfill her wishes and all she wanted, I would provide. There wasn't a moment of couldn't, because I always would. Well, nothing lasts forever I guess, and now, no prizes for guessing, I am living a single, bachelor life.
I will continue that story maybe another day. =)
Now, I am living a totally different life. Everyday its college, Rotaract, college, Rotaract. Well, that doesnt mean I do not have a personal life though. I still go out for dinners and drinks once in awhile. This is something i learn from my very good friend, Dinesh, 'Freedom Through Responsibility'. Following that, my another good friend Bernard also thought me one good lesson in life, 'You are who you are, do what you are best at and never ever try to IMPRESS.' These two lessons have paved the way for me to embark further in life and to grow more mature.
Through that, it made me realise that the best way to do anything is to do it your own way. I had always believed that doing things myself would be the best policy. Its not that I dont trust anyone else, but its jus me. I am not willing to pass things to others when I know that it just would not live up to my expectations.
In addition, I also have the tendency to only ask once for something to be done. Its either it is carried out with full dedication, or else do not give me high and low stories. I would not have time to entertain that. If anyone wants any EGO, do something that is worth that EGO. If there's nothing you can do, then you can take ur EGO with you and go fly kites...
TO BE CONTINUED...
I never had a perfect life laid in front of me. I guess not many out there would have any. For those who have enjoyed a perfect life thus far, do appreciate it and never let it go.
I have and had everythin I could ever want in my life though. I achieved things that many would think impossible for me to do. I always believe in one very simple thing in life, 'Nothing is Impossible'. So as long as we try, we can definitely do it. Yes, I admit that i might and would complaint at times, but by the end of the day, its not our complaints that will move things and make things work. Its our effort and creativity that makes the world move round.
Many times before, I had loved and lost the most important people in my life. All this time, whenever I lost someone, I would really feel so down, lifeless and I just felt that its the end of the world. I wanted to just kill myself and forget bout all the sorrows in the world.
Yet, I am still here today, writting this blog, unleashing my deepest emotions and hopefully through sharing, I would be able to care for many others outside who are feeling down and just feel that the world has turned down on them.
The first breakdown I faced was when I lost my first love. She was the only one I had in my life, I gave her everything, and i really mean everything. Never had I fail to fulfill her wishes and all she wanted, I would provide. There wasn't a moment of couldn't, because I always would. Well, nothing lasts forever I guess, and now, no prizes for guessing, I am living a single, bachelor life.
I will continue that story maybe another day. =)
Now, I am living a totally different life. Everyday its college, Rotaract, college, Rotaract. Well, that doesnt mean I do not have a personal life though. I still go out for dinners and drinks once in awhile. This is something i learn from my very good friend, Dinesh, 'Freedom Through Responsibility'. Following that, my another good friend Bernard also thought me one good lesson in life, 'You are who you are, do what you are best at and never ever try to IMPRESS.' These two lessons have paved the way for me to embark further in life and to grow more mature.
Through that, it made me realise that the best way to do anything is to do it your own way. I had always believed that doing things myself would be the best policy. Its not that I dont trust anyone else, but its jus me. I am not willing to pass things to others when I know that it just would not live up to my expectations.
In addition, I also have the tendency to only ask once for something to be done. Its either it is carried out with full dedication, or else do not give me high and low stories. I would not have time to entertain that. If anyone wants any EGO, do something that is worth that EGO. If there's nothing you can do, then you can take ur EGO with you and go fly kites...
TO BE CONTINUED...
Friday, 19 October 2007
Will there EVER be IMPROVEMENT??
As I stated in my first blog, I had actually made bookings for the new Proton Persona. I've been waiting for the car to arrive for almost two months now (the time frame I was promised for the delivery of the car).
If anyone can remember, Proton had actually "taken" away my choice of colour, which was metal grey. It was rather irrational for them to do so, as metal grey is the favourable colour and the "in" colour that Proton has been offering. In addition to that, they also took off the colour from the high-line Proton Personas. I mean, of all the lines to remove somethin, you choose the high-line and remove stuff??? Isn't this just irrational and unacceptable??
Well, the story doesn't stop just there. So, the two months has actually passed and a call has been made to my still-forgiveable-salesman (still forgiveable because it's not really his fault), and the explanation he gave was, Proton has now decided to produce the low-line Proton Personas first. This means, the medium-line and high-line wants are left stranded without production. Summing it all up, waiting for the delivery of the car has now been pushed all the way till "before the end of this year".
Where is the rationale here?? What do they mean by producing the low-line cars first?? Does this mean that I did not purchase a car from them?? Does this mean that only by purchasing the low-line cars, we will be served better?? How can they ever improve then?? Expecting everyone in the country to only go for the lower band cars and not even look at the higher ends?? Is this then showing the nation that Proton can only produce low end cars?? With all due respect, all customers of Proton, such a big organisation should be treated the same! Why is there now a difference in treatment??
This is really something I cant manage to think off a appropriate reason, even to explain the matter and at least console myself and tell myself it's somethin normal. Purchasing a lower-end product, gives you better service and treatment, but purchasing a higher-end product gives you no respect and not even a fair treatment??!!
So, with the new car out, everyone gives Proton full faith and trust once again and this is how they treat their customers?? Coming out with all the promotions, doing a great job I have to admit (to return their status in the car production market in Malaysia), and they ruin it all by their lack in after sales service?? I really wonder will there ever be any improvement in the standard of Proton as the national car maker of Malaysia.
I dare say, if this were to continue, they will just fall in the standards once again and it would be hard for them to come up once again. They had their chances and they just wasted it. This may sound personal, but if this were to happen to many more out there, imagine the severity it would bring to the image that Proton will carry for as long as they are still in existence.
IMPROVEMENT may just never come!!
Dissappointed,
CK
If anyone can remember, Proton had actually "taken" away my choice of colour, which was metal grey. It was rather irrational for them to do so, as metal grey is the favourable colour and the "in" colour that Proton has been offering. In addition to that, they also took off the colour from the high-line Proton Personas. I mean, of all the lines to remove somethin, you choose the high-line and remove stuff??? Isn't this just irrational and unacceptable??
Well, the story doesn't stop just there. So, the two months has actually passed and a call has been made to my still-forgiveable-salesman (still forgiveable because it's not really his fault), and the explanation he gave was, Proton has now decided to produce the low-line Proton Personas first. This means, the medium-line and high-line wants are left stranded without production. Summing it all up, waiting for the delivery of the car has now been pushed all the way till "before the end of this year".
Where is the rationale here?? What do they mean by producing the low-line cars first?? Does this mean that I did not purchase a car from them?? Does this mean that only by purchasing the low-line cars, we will be served better?? How can they ever improve then?? Expecting everyone in the country to only go for the lower band cars and not even look at the higher ends?? Is this then showing the nation that Proton can only produce low end cars?? With all due respect, all customers of Proton, such a big organisation should be treated the same! Why is there now a difference in treatment??
This is really something I cant manage to think off a appropriate reason, even to explain the matter and at least console myself and tell myself it's somethin normal. Purchasing a lower-end product, gives you better service and treatment, but purchasing a higher-end product gives you no respect and not even a fair treatment??!!
So, with the new car out, everyone gives Proton full faith and trust once again and this is how they treat their customers?? Coming out with all the promotions, doing a great job I have to admit (to return their status in the car production market in Malaysia), and they ruin it all by their lack in after sales service?? I really wonder will there ever be any improvement in the standard of Proton as the national car maker of Malaysia.
I dare say, if this were to continue, they will just fall in the standards once again and it would be hard for them to come up once again. They had their chances and they just wasted it. This may sound personal, but if this were to happen to many more out there, imagine the severity it would bring to the image that Proton will carry for as long as they are still in existence.
IMPROVEMENT may just never come!!
Dissappointed,
CK
Monday, 15 October 2007
Blood Donation Drive (Another Unlucky Day)
I guess I have to say that this is another bad day for me. =( I agreed with my club to follow them the National Blood Bank(NBB), to donate blood.
Now, I don't really have a good experience with donating blood though. The last time I donated was back in INTI Subang, where i studied for my A-Levels. That time, me and my friend decided to do some good to society. Being healthy and after the various checks carried out, I was eligible for donating.
It started quite well, with the encouragement from all my friends there that day, I actually did not really feel the pain of the needle pooking into my arm. So, blood started flowing out from me, and the bag was starting to be filled. I was rather ok still at that moment, chatting with my friends and still being able to joke around.
Suddenly, I felt dizzy. I began to feel like fainting, cos my vision was blurred. So, I called the nurse up and told her i wasn't feeling right and she quickly stopped the blood from flowing and remove the bag from me. I was then left to lie down, with my head tilted back, to let the blood in my body flow again.
With that bad experience always in mind, I went to the NBB today with fear and insecurity. It went well through the registration process; they had my record actually, and when I was waiting for my turn to be called to enter the blood donation area, my hands began to became very cold(maybe that explains my name-Iceman). Hehehe.
Well, my number obviously got called anyway, so all of us went in and I was asked to sit on that same chair that I almost fainted on the last time. Only difference is that this chair was much more nicer, and the facilities there were much more advanced. The same process started and my hands were still very cold.
Blood was pumping out of me with high speed again. The bag was filling up and everything went well this time. I did not fell uneasy and did not had any feeling of fainting. The bag was then eventually filled up, and it was time to remove the needle in my arm(this needle is actually connected to the blood bag and it channels blood from the body to the bag).
Removing was ok, and I was prepared to leave the chair when I jus felt like fainting again. I really dunno what's the matter. During all the checks, even with the doctor, my condition was great(I have high amounts of hemoglobin, my blood pressure is good, my weight is wonderful(I think so... Hahaha) and well, to make it simple everything was a go for me.
So, once again i was left to lie down with my head tilted slightly to the back. This was rather embarassing though. In front of so many people, how could this happen to me?? My goodness...
Until now, as I am writing this blog, I am still feelin rather weak and I think i really need to take an early rest. They gave some ion pills after the donation and I am supposed to take once everyday after a meal. I jus don't know what the outcome of that will be. I just hope I don't get anymore bad experiences.
Sigh....
CK
Now, I don't really have a good experience with donating blood though. The last time I donated was back in INTI Subang, where i studied for my A-Levels. That time, me and my friend decided to do some good to society. Being healthy and after the various checks carried out, I was eligible for donating.
It started quite well, with the encouragement from all my friends there that day, I actually did not really feel the pain of the needle pooking into my arm. So, blood started flowing out from me, and the bag was starting to be filled. I was rather ok still at that moment, chatting with my friends and still being able to joke around.
Suddenly, I felt dizzy. I began to feel like fainting, cos my vision was blurred. So, I called the nurse up and told her i wasn't feeling right and she quickly stopped the blood from flowing and remove the bag from me. I was then left to lie down, with my head tilted back, to let the blood in my body flow again.
With that bad experience always in mind, I went to the NBB today with fear and insecurity. It went well through the registration process; they had my record actually, and when I was waiting for my turn to be called to enter the blood donation area, my hands began to became very cold(maybe that explains my name-Iceman). Hehehe.
Well, my number obviously got called anyway, so all of us went in and I was asked to sit on that same chair that I almost fainted on the last time. Only difference is that this chair was much more nicer, and the facilities there were much more advanced. The same process started and my hands were still very cold.
Blood was pumping out of me with high speed again. The bag was filling up and everything went well this time. I did not fell uneasy and did not had any feeling of fainting. The bag was then eventually filled up, and it was time to remove the needle in my arm(this needle is actually connected to the blood bag and it channels blood from the body to the bag).
Removing was ok, and I was prepared to leave the chair when I jus felt like fainting again. I really dunno what's the matter. During all the checks, even with the doctor, my condition was great(I have high amounts of hemoglobin, my blood pressure is good, my weight is wonderful(I think so... Hahaha) and well, to make it simple everything was a go for me.
So, once again i was left to lie down with my head tilted slightly to the back. This was rather embarassing though. In front of so many people, how could this happen to me?? My goodness...
Until now, as I am writing this blog, I am still feelin rather weak and I think i really need to take an early rest. They gave some ion pills after the donation and I am supposed to take once everyday after a meal. I jus don't know what the outcome of that will be. I just hope I don't get anymore bad experiences.
Sigh....
CK
Sunday, 14 October 2007
Unlucky, unlucky Day... =(
Hmmm, I guess this is just not the day for me (Saturday, 13/10/2007).
It started off quite well in the morning, I woke up rather early and settled all my stuff... Well, actualyl not all my stuff, I still have my conference budget left unattended and also tickets to print. Just got lazy i guess.
That wasn't really the bad part. Now, my family has this 'mahjong' set, so we would normally play during the weekends when we are free and can't think of anything to do. At times, we just feel like staying at home, cos there's nowhere to go and nothing to buy.
So, that was what happened yesterday. We started playing around noon. I was rather ok in the beginning. Was winning and everything went well.
Then, all of the sudden, luck was really not on my side, and it jus started to continue moving further away from me. I lost, lost, lost and continued lossing all the way till the night. We didn't really played non-stop though; had stops here and there. Then also went to my grandma's place, which is actually one of my family's weekly activities, we do it every Saturday.
When we came home in the night, we had 2-3 more sessions of 'mahjong' and yes, you've guessed it, I lost everything again. It came to a total of RM150 of losses. Imagine the amount of stuff I can and could have done with that amount of money.
However, I guess life does go on, so shouldn't complain much. I agreed to play in the first place after all. Hehehe. Will be playing again today. Wish me all the best ya!! At least get back what I have lost. I will be happy.
Still feeling sad,
CK
It started off quite well in the morning, I woke up rather early and settled all my stuff... Well, actualyl not all my stuff, I still have my conference budget left unattended and also tickets to print. Just got lazy i guess.
That wasn't really the bad part. Now, my family has this 'mahjong' set, so we would normally play during the weekends when we are free and can't think of anything to do. At times, we just feel like staying at home, cos there's nowhere to go and nothing to buy.
So, that was what happened yesterday. We started playing around noon. I was rather ok in the beginning. Was winning and everything went well.
Then, all of the sudden, luck was really not on my side, and it jus started to continue moving further away from me. I lost, lost, lost and continued lossing all the way till the night. We didn't really played non-stop though; had stops here and there. Then also went to my grandma's place, which is actually one of my family's weekly activities, we do it every Saturday.
When we came home in the night, we had 2-3 more sessions of 'mahjong' and yes, you've guessed it, I lost everything again. It came to a total of RM150 of losses. Imagine the amount of stuff I can and could have done with that amount of money.
However, I guess life does go on, so shouldn't complain much. I agreed to play in the first place after all. Hehehe. Will be playing again today. Wish me all the best ya!! At least get back what I have lost. I will be happy.
Still feeling sad,
CK
Friday, 12 October 2007
Monkey Business
Check this out...
Once upon a time there was a nice young man called Karim. He used
to sell caps for a living, and roam around several villages. One day he
would be in Mughalsarai, the other day people would find him in Faizabad.
It was an afternoon in summer and he was traversing the vast plains
when he felt tired and wanted to have a nap. He found a nice mango
tree with lots of branches and cool shade, placed his bag of caps
beside him and went to sleep.
Tired as he was, he was quickly fast asleep. When he woke up after
a refreshing little nap, he found that there weren't any caps in his
bag! "Oh, Allah!", he said to himself, "Did the thieves have to find me of all
people?" But then he noticed that the mango tree was full of cute
monkeys wearing colourful caps!
He yelled at the monkeys and they screamed back. He made faces at
them and found the monkeys to be experts at that. He threw a stone at
them and they showered him with raw mangoes.
"Ya Allah, how do I get my caps back," he said. Frustrated, he took
off his own cap and slammed it on the ground. And lo, the stupid
monkeys threw their caps too! Smart Karim didn't waste a second,
collected the caps and was on his way.
50 Years later ....
Young Abdul, grandson of famous topiwala Karim who was also
working hard at making $$$ doing his family business, was going through the
same jungle. After a long walk he was very tired and found a nice
mango tree with lots of branches and cool shade. Abdul decided to
rest a while and very soon was fast asleep. A few hours later, when
Abdul woke up, he realised that all the caps from his bag were gone!
Abdul started searching for the same and to his surprise found some
monkeys sitting on mango tree wearing his caps. Abdul was
frustrated and didn't know what to do. And then he remembered a story his
grandfathers proudly used to let him.
"Yes!!!! I can fool these monkeys!!!", said Abdul. "I'll make them
imitate me and very soon I'll get all my caps back!"
Abdul waved at the monkeys -- the Monkeys waved at Abdul
Abdul blew his nose -- the Monkeys blew their noses
Abdul started dancing -- the Monkeys were also dancing
Abdul pulled his ears -- the Monkeys pulled their ears
Abdul raised his hands -- the Monkeys raised their hands
Abdul threw his cap on the ground ............
........ one of the monkeys jumped down from the tree, picked the
cap, walked upto Abdul; slapped him and said "Idiot!!! Do you think
ONLY YOU HAVE A GRANDFATHER?????"
Holidays or Hell-days??
Hmmm, this would be my first post for my first blog. I think it's cos the holidays are here. I am not a too fond person of a blog actually. I don really have the time in the past do maintain a blog (if i had one).
Anyway, I guess this is gonna be a good way for me to go through my holidays or hell-days with at least something to do.
Its gonna be bout ten days of holidays. If my car was here, then I don think I would be writing this blog here. I was promised delivery of the car like within this month before Raya and yet it hasnt arrived. I dunno wats taking them so long. And as always before this, I don have easy access to anywhere I wanna go.
That's how the hell-days thing came about. Imagine having 10 days of freedom and with nothing to do?? Maybe I am just complaining too much. Hmmm... Argh!!! I just dunno wat to write, that's why i am yapping all the way here... Let this be the first and hopefully i can come out with better wans once I get warmed up... Hahaha..
That's all for now,
CK
Anyway, I guess this is gonna be a good way for me to go through my holidays or hell-days with at least something to do.
Its gonna be bout ten days of holidays. If my car was here, then I don think I would be writing this blog here. I was promised delivery of the car like within this month before Raya and yet it hasnt arrived. I dunno wats taking them so long. And as always before this, I don have easy access to anywhere I wanna go.
That's how the hell-days thing came about. Imagine having 10 days of freedom and with nothing to do?? Maybe I am just complaining too much. Hmmm... Argh!!! I just dunno wat to write, that's why i am yapping all the way here... Let this be the first and hopefully i can come out with better wans once I get warmed up... Hahaha..
That's all for now,
CK
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